I have a little Secret to SPILL

 Secret to confess

Nope, I'm not pregnant, so if you were reading this post hoping for that confession, sorry to disappoint you.

Ever since I left Oregon, in Feb 2013, I have visited my family once a year (at least) usually in the summer. 

That's 11 years!!! 

My secret, are you READY???

is...

 that I want to move back to Oregon!!!!!!

I know, I know, I complain about being cold in Florida, and Arizona, and I'm VERY VERY against being cold still 

(& so is my body, and my EDS joints) BUT so so so many of the people I love are there, and I'm tired of being so lonely.

I'm tired of being the far away sister/daughter/aunt/friend.

I long for community, with people who know me.

I want game nights and craft nights with my friends, I want to go to my nieces choir concert, go to karaoke, thrift and yard sale with Natalie and Karina. My once a year visit just isn't cutting it anymore. 

Video calls once a week with Mom and chatting on the phone with Natalie and Karina, and texting Joelle is NOT ENOUGH anymore. My heart and soul are homesick.

But I'm an adult with responsibilities and there are many obstacles that stand if our way. Mostly financial obstacles but also the practical stuff like jobs and housing. 

My husband is actually the one who started the discussion, back in October, when we lost our job suddenly and while we were in the mushy middle of limbo land. I didn't think he would ever want to live in Oregon so I never let my heart even consider the possibility. 

This confession is, in no way, an announcement, or a plan, just a strong, deep desire. 

I LOVE the beach, and I will soak up every moment of sand and ocean while I am here, I'll enjoy my job and do the best I can and maybe get to spend some time with Tim's family that lives a few hours away, while we are still here in Florida 

but my heart is elsewhere.

Maybe a year from now, maybe two, hopefully not too much longer than that.

Join me in prayer, that if it's God's will, he will move away the mountains that stand in the way  !!